The Notebook♥.

I think its creepy how much I love this photo. It's creepy because its just of a street, that has a little water on the grown. This photo is beautiful. I could stare at it all day really. I imagine laying im the street with my signifigant other like on 'The Notebook'. That's probably whats so beautiful about this photo. Im imagining, really.

Seems like my life is looking up.

I try not to depend on people for my own happiness but since these people are apart of my life why not? I've been having an amazing time at work. Like I guess thats school for me since I graduated already. I mean i've noticed how I like Justin, how much fun I have when he's there. Then my "wihete best friend" Austin, I swear like I have like thee best time ..like we laugh and talk about everybody.

Keith asked me to be his best friend, I said no. Simple fact is I want to be with him. Its crazy because he's so far away.

My life is getting better, best believe.

Im going to stay positive regardless, and let the bullshit fly.

Family Time.

So this would be My niece and I. This lil lady is probably one of the people I love so much in this world. Yea, she makes me mad, but I love her with all my heart. I solemnly swear I will be nice to her more from now on.

Okay, so these are my older sisters. The tall one is Chiquita and the one sitting down is Ashanique. She's the Marine of the family, yea she chopped her hair off. I love them no matter what.

My nephew [oldest sister's baby] He is so bad, but I love him. When he laughs, he makes yu want to laugh and play more. lol.

So in this here photo, My sister and I were 'battling' her boyfriend and our cousin to 'Teach Me How To Dougie'. It would of been wayy more fun if these wierdos werent lurking. jeez.

[from the left] My sister's boyfriend, my sister, and Me. We were just talking until my mom wanted to take pictures.

SideNote: my sister's relationship to Jerome is so perfect. They've been knowing each other since they were in 7th grade, they fell in love in 8th. Now 6 years down the road they are married. Both of them are extremely happy. Im happy for them, when cupid finally decides to hit me, I want this kind of love ..and only this kind of love. That unbreakable shit. (;

Almostt..

September 10th is around the corner. Being 18 is very important. Im almost 18 !! Im so use to everything going wrong on my birthday ..my mom never has any money, nobody remembers, etc. So this year im in control of my own happiness for my birthday. Fuck everybody that doesnt agree.

So my Tay and I decided we are going to Six Flags.

•  Wake up, go to breakfast.
• Go get laptop/ or phone.

I obviously want my phone, since my mom is disconnecting my phone. Im assuming my check may be 420$ atleast.

• board the train with my Tay [lol]
• have fun @ Six Flags.
• go see Resident Evil.

Im completely content if it doesnt happen in this order, i'll just be happy if it all happens that day.

Depression Mode.

So here it goes.. im assuming it's never ending. I need that spark, that sudden urge. When bad things happen in my life/ or things that I wish wouldnt happen ..I want to stay positive. Instead, I fall into feeling sorry for myself. I hate that. I need that "wildcard" in my life.

I love my family dont get me wrong, but I need that "wildcard" that outside of my family. Aguy, a new friend, something please?

SideNote: Im definetly going running tonight. & im going to eat wayy better ; because I want to lose 5 pounds before my birthday.

It's Finally September !!

So it's officially September ..I dunno wheather to be happy or what because it seems like everything is slowly falling apart. Seems like Shaunta is the only one thats trying to stay happy for my sake. My mom and I aren't talking.  She turnt my phone off ..therefor I told the guy I wouldnt be able to talk to him and if it's meant to be then we'll talk again. All he said was 'OK' .. So when I get my new phone, I hope I ferget his number. Fuck him! My sister and I got into it. I've reached a point in my life where it only matters if im happy.

Fuck Everybody and thats exactly how I feel at this point, no lie. Like everybody could go to hell. Im over here facing inner demons and shit. But seriously FUCK IT! im lonely, not physically but mentally and emotionally. ya know?

Side Note: My birthday is in 9 days !! ; i'll be 18 !!

Inspirational.

To achieve your dreams, remember yourABCs:




Avoid negative sources, people, things and habits.Believe in yourself. Consider things from every angle.Don’t give up and don’t give in. Enjoy life today: yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come.Family and Friends are hidden treasures. Seek them and enjoy their riches. Give more than you planned to give. Hang on to your dreams. Ignore those who try to discourage you. Just do it! Keep on trying, no matter how hard it seems. It will get better. Love yourself first and foremost. Make it happen. Never lie, cheat, or steal. Always strike a fair deal. Open your eyes and see things as they really are. Practice makes perfect. Quitters never win and winners never quit. Read, study and learn about everything important in your life. Stop procrastinating. Take control of your own destiny. Understand yourself in order to better understand others. Visualize it. Want it more than anything. Xccelerate your efforts. You are unique of all of Nature’s creations. Nothing can replace you. Zero in on your target, and go for it!